Monday, November 12, 2007

Nov 10 - Pretty Exciting

Well my first CD matured on Nov 10th but here's the more interesting news. Malaysians marched for a free and fair election, handing a memorandum to the King to demand electoral reform and transparency. The police got involved... No further comment, I have no wish to be extradited or be called a "goblok".

  1. For more information on this surf on to Malaysia Today.
    Racial tensions simmer in Malaysia
  2. Malaysia: Allow Rally for Electoral Reform - Risk of Misuse of Force by Authorities Against Peaceful Protestors (Human Rights Watch)
  3. Defiant Malaysian Protesters Face Tear Gas 10 Nov 2007 Live Video by Al Jazeera.
  4. Malaysian Minister Interviewed on Kuala Lumpur protests Live Interview by Al Jazeera (This information minister suffers from a horrible case of Manglish. My sincere apologies.)
  5. Malaysia's Badawi Under Pressure
  6. Suaram's Statement: IGP's statement misleading, intended to undermine people's power

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Perceptions: After the Recital

I am shocked! It’s surreal. I still don’t believe it. The feedback and comments I have received are a far cry from what I perceived the recital to be. I knew I have been playing well these past few weeks but whether I had improved or regressed, only the Winfield recital would reveal.

I was very surprised to hear some of the comments. I don’t often blow my own trumpet here on this blog. Some of the comments I received include:
- You had the audience in the palm of your hand for most of the time
- You kept the audience on the edge of their seat wondering what would happen next
- We have not heard that piano sound so beautiful for some time
- We were breathless and it was breathtaking.
- Your playing lifted my spirits.
- You have grown so much and now you don’t just play the piano, you are the instrument.
- You played an incredible, fabulous, wonderful, great, etc. recital!
- You’re finally playing at the doctoral level.

I had to wait to meet with my former piano professor to find out what exactly happened. I am glad he pointed out a lot of the things I did. I hope he puts them in an email because I still have a hard time letting it sink in. I’m playing with a good full tone. I’m taking more time and freedom at the piano. There was a certain serene and calm quality about the Schubert that was projected to the audience. I’m also finally giving myself a little more and the extrovert is slowly coming back. There is much more personality in my playing now. Perhaps dancing has helped my playing and performing.

With my curiosity peaked, I watched the DVD of my U of Alabama recital and I shocked myself. I have to wait to get home to review the Winfield recital. I already know it is the best recital of the five. To enjoy being on stage again, to be really calm in a recital and to love the piano again, confirm that the change of teachers was the correct decision. Now with all these experiences behind me, I’m ready for the next set of challenges and a new chapter at UA.

End of another recital series


The end of another chapter... Funny the suggestion to blog came from one of my piano teachers. It is almost surreal to hear some of the comments about my recent recitals. I am having a difficult time coming to terms with what I perceived and still perceive, and comparing those to the feedback.

It was good to perform at SC again and get reacquainted with the piano in Messenger. After many years away and playing on different pianos, I could now detect some of the strengths and weaknesses of that piano. I struggled with the dynamic level of the piano and that it wouldn’t play any louder. I knew I had to bring my level of dynamics down to match it but still play with a nice tone. I have been working diligently to play with a full tone without pressing or being wimpy.

Tuesday October 23rd was a strange day for me. I was pretty tired from the weekend and an overcast sky the day before didn’t help. I did not practice as much as I intended to the few days prior to the recital because I had so many people to see and catch up with. I studied the score when I had a chance. I had a headache for most of the day but decided to continue with my recital routine. I have found out that evening recitals work best for me as I am able to take a nap in the afternoon. The ability to be relaxed enough to sleep is a blessing!

Prior to the recital I told myself, I just needed to have 95% accuracy tonight and allowed myself room for failure and mistakes. It was great to have Meagan help with my dress and getting my hair pinned properly. Fun times! I was pretty pleased with the Bach Capriccio although the fugue had some slips due to unexpected (expected) interruptions from the audience. I have had two note perfect performances of the same fugue but both weren’t recorded so I can let this one go.

Debussy was a challenge to play at SC. I have memories of myself being the awkward teenager there and how was I supposed to project the sensual. At the same time, I knew without sensuality and languidity the pieces would be a flop. I had a great time playing the first two movements but somehow struggled with the third. I left the stage feeling pretty discouraged for whatever reason. I collected myself at intermission and reminded myself that I had successfully completed 4 recitals, tonight would be no different. I wanted the adrenaline and excitement of a bigger audience but the people that cared about me were already out there. I couldn’t and shouldn’t ask for more.

Just before walking out to play the Schubert, I had this attack of “what ifs”. What if I forget? What if I mess up this or that? I looked back on the journey for this sonata, from the moment I decided to program this, learning and fighting for it. I had fought hard to perform this piece musically and emotionally. It is because of this piece that I met many people, had many discussions, listened to umpteen recordings and shed a lot of tears. It would be a waste to lose heart at the last recital of the series. I immersed myself in this very reflective state and started the piece, just the piano and I. The one thing I noticed is there was always dead silence in the hall; not a chair squeaked, not an audible breath, especially at the end of the first two movements.

I ended the recital securely and went on to greeting my guests. For the first time, I had to walk around and compose myself after a recital. I wasn’t quite ready to meet everyone and hear the feedback. I thought it had gone okay only.

Sunday, October 7, 2007

YES! This is IT!

"YES!" A big, one word immediately off-stage after Schubert. What a triumph to end the piece successfully! The recital was a blast and I thorougly enjoyed playing it. Usually I mess up on endings, BUT today I finished every piece strongly and under control. I felt so comfortable on stage today and I have missed that feeling for almost two years. (Of course, with this much adrenaline in my system I won't be falling asleep anytime soon, although my eyes are getting very tired.)

I had to struggle with some nerves with the Bach, but I am happy with the way it turned out. It will take some closer study of the minor movements to improve it. I fought for the fugue and it was worth it. I have been always concerned with Debussy's Estampes but I knew I had to let go and allow it to fall in its place. I was very surprised at how well this set went. I also allowed myself to explore the sensual in the habanera. I don't think I've ever played it better. The Jardins started way faster than I practiced it but it was expected and I just let it happen. I missed some stuff in the ending and that was okay because I ended the piece nicely. I know I'll get it in Winfield.

The Schubert sonata is and definitely was the gem of the recital. Although I'm not usually a person who strives to prove herself, this time a lot of things hung on its successful performance. My biggest struggle with this piece is physical - I get extremely thirsty by the 4th mvt. I did tank up the whole day in preparation for this. During the performance, I was slightly annoyed at someone coughing almost always at the wrong moments. I didn't let that get to me as I felt so comfortable on stage and musically everything was knitting together. I controlled the musical and emotional elements well tonight. I would catch myself smiling during the last mvt. I am thrilled I got most of the chords, (above 95% average is good enough for me) and the technical challenges. I nailed the ending as I intended to.

I hope this recital shows the UA School of Music something. I made the best decision in changing teachers. (I don't hate my former teacher although this person may think so. I wish she could have celebrated my success with me tonight.) I can finally play the piano to my fullest potential and exploit the range of color I am capable of producing. I can play without getting tensed or injured at the piano. In fact, my fingers, arms and shoulders feel wonderful even after this marathon. I can play using my musical instincts and trust my judgments during a performance. My confidence was not compromised. Most of all, I know I did play my best today and I wouldn't have done anything differently. Soli Deo Gloria.

Monday, September 24, 2007

DMA recital round 2

My next recital approaches. The past 9 months have been rather turbulent, leading up to a change in piano teachers. The summer has been a time of transition and putting away things in the past. The first step was adding a Bach piece to the recital. Even the start of this semester was a challenge to move forward to new ground, as I often felt I was still in a cage.

The selection of repertoire is again more challenging that I intended it to be. Firstly, this recital requires way more stamina physically and mentally from me. There is also a juxtaposition of the tragicomic in Bach's Capriccio with the tragic/heroic of Schubert's last sonata, both sharing the same key. My strong point at the piano is color but somehow Debussy wasn't quite working out. Since Estampes was not fully a choice of mine, it has been difficult overcoming a mental/emotional block. I discovered the extent of this "block" when I couldn't write program notes because I knew almost nothing of this set. Those of you that know me, will recognize this is rather strange. I usually thoroughly research all my recital pieces. The other twist is that the first two pieces in this set deal with exoticism and eroticism. Need I say more about how difficult this is? I'm glad I found this out 3 weeks before the recital.


It has been good to be able to look back on my past two years and what it has taught me. Being regimented at the piano for two years was rather unpleasant but perhaps now the voice in me will finally want to be heard. I listened to the recording of my first DMA recital. Sadly, I do not recognize that pianist although I know her well.


It certainly forced me to look for other outlets to be creative: dance & Chinese history. As I said to Ken Robinson after his lecture, "Hi, I'm a music student here. Welcome to my prison." I am much less self-conscious now, although I am generally not a shy person. There will hopefully be pleasant surprises for everyone, me included. I can't wait to get on stage!

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Upcoming Performances

Oct 2, 4:00pm Graduate Recital, Capstone Village
Oct 7, 8:00pm Graduate Recital, Moody Recital Hall, University of Alabama
Oct 23, 7:30pm Graduate Recital, Messenger Recital Hall, Southwestern College Winfield KS

Other events:
Oct 27, Wichita Asian Festival. I will be accompanying "America, the Beautiful" and performing something Malaysian with friends. This is going to be fun!!

Friday, September 21, 2007

People Watching at Airports (Pt 2)

Since I blogged about people watching at O'Hare on my way home to Malaysia, I want to continue with the same coming back to the USA. This round it was more of parent watching.

My journey back to the USA was very smooth considering other experiences I have had. I, along with other fellow passengers, was plagued with screaming children on almost every flight segment. I also was landed with the great honor of sitting next to a screaming toddler on my last flight segment. I actually didn't mind it too much since I wisely always have earplugs & an eye mask with me.

What appalled me was the lack of parental sense! The flight from Singapore to Japan is about 7 hrs. I felt sorry for the toddler who didn't have his toys, his snacks and his blankie.. and whatever it is that could occupy him. I thought that after takeoff the parents would take something out, but sadly nothing. The child was allowed to screech everytime he wanted something.

We almost had a lost child scenario.. screaming child running on the concourse in O'Hare. Security personnel even tried to get a hold of him. I pitied the mom who could obviously not handle him. She had a baby on her back and just couldn't handle chasing this toddler.

I noticed the same with the parent who sat next to me. There were no toys, nothing. The toddler's routine is already disrupted and what more could torture you more.. Then there was another toddler and they decided screaming was the best form of communication. It was rather comical! I was the one with the earplugs *grin* and slept through the whole fiasco. The other poor passengers...

I didn't have perfect parents but I remember every long trip we had to make was filled with some planning. My brother and I each had our own bag. Dad would take us to the candy store and we'd choose our favorite stuff. We chose what snacks, books, games and toys we were bringing along. Usually these trips involved my dad being in a meeting and we had to keep ourselves occupied.

Buy your child an interesting new toy secretly. Only bring it out after takeoff. :) I once read this and will take this advice pretty seriously. Only I will have to buy a few new toys since there are quite a few flight segments from the USA to Malaysia. Sometime in the future my days of perfect parenting will end!

Firsts...


It's been a while since my last rant, and that was definitely a rant. The summer went by so quickly. There were some things that I did for the first time..
1. Changed my hairstyle for the third time this year. It is straightened and dyed! I have never changed it that many times a year.
2. Danced solo in public - This was a great experience for me. It did help that there weren't too many people that knew how to dance to assymetric meters.
3. Had a full body deep tissue massage - OUCH OUCH OUCH but it was great
4. Learned a few self-defense techniques
5. Learned how to tie a scarf umpteen ways

Some things I will do for the first time soon (and hopefully do these successfully):
1. Play a set of Debussy pieces
2. Attempt to play a 40-min Schubert sonata
3. Play at the Wichita Asian Festival.
4. Spend a semester abroad in China which leads to no. 5
5. Beg for money! Lots of it.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

A Horrible Case of Malaysia Tak Boleh (Cannot)

This is not my regular blog post and does not reflect the many nice people I met at the festival. This letter is directed at the management of the Rainforest World Music Festival and the Sarawak Cultural Village. I apologize as the letter is scathing:
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I have plenty opportunities to attend concerts of world music in air-conditioned, acoustically sound halls with comfortable seating. However, I chose to brave the heat and humidity of the rainforest to research the local music of Sarawak and to gather more resources on world music only to find great disappointment. There were many aspects of the festival which were disappointing and a letdown after all the hype. During the course of the festival, I had to listen to the grouses of many foreign tourists and appease them.

Tour brochures state that the Sarawak Cultural Village the best living museum in Southeast Asia and I have to agree with it, after visiting many similar museums around the world. I have visited the museum three times prior to this visit. The museum is designed to be visited with a guide and items are not labeled for individual browsing. However, this famous living museum was dead for the festival three days and the day after. The Sarawak Tourism Board should answer to the tourists who were expecting the SCV to be running. I was appalled and shocked when I arrived at the museum to find that it had fully suspended its normal activities. The houses were unmanned and there were no demonstrations of the local arts and culture. There was no notice on the website of either the RWMF or the SCV that stated this.

The RWMF only had programs from 2:00 pm-5:30 pm, with the evening concerts starting at 7:30 pm. The full suspension of the museum programs left tourists who arrived early or who did not want to attend workshops with nothing to do besides eat and shop. The administration of the SCV should have taken advantage of the attendees of the festival and provided alternate activities to complement the RMWF festivities. You would be surprised to know that in the three days of this festival I never witnessed neither a Malay joget, nor an Iban ngajat, nor a Melanau bamboo dance nor an Indian bhangra nor a Chinese lion dance. In fact, I took it upon myself to teach the volunteers the bamboo dance and danced it myself. I do understand that with the influx of thousands of people for the festival would have affected the normal day-to-day running of the museum. It would have been wise to schedule a few performances at the different houses, instead of totaling canceling everything. I had to convince many tourists and Malaysians that the SCV is a living museum, the tourist brochures were not a lie and they should revisit another day.

As for the RWMF, I could not fully enjoy myself given the disorganization. This is the 10th anniversary and it looks like this is the inaugural year of the festival. Annually, I attend an acoustic music festival in Winfield Kansas, where the attendees number to 17,000, nearly doubling the town’s population of only 10,000. Concerts start at 9:00 am until 1:00am with four different stages going at one time. If such a small town could organize a world class festival drawing names like Tommy Emmanuel from Australia and bands like Cherish the Ladies and the Dixie Chicks, Kuching can surely handle the RWMF. It is also not more expensive than the RWMF costing only USD$80 for the 5-day pass.

Firstly, there was no map of the SCV in the program booklet. I have visited the SCV three times so I knew my way around. The volunteers were usually standing around and I was not exactly sure what their duties were. I was also surprised that people who bought advanced tickets had to wait longer in line than the people who walked up to the counter at the SCV. There were usually only 2 lines for admission, with very confusing signs for re-admission. The exits were also confusing as nobody knew how many lines or what lines were for which shuttle. You could be politely queuing up in the wrong line.

The shuttle service was a shock to most of us as the bus would not leave until it was full. We thought it would be a timed shuttle and were annoyed that it spent lots of time circling the city. The 12:00 noon bus only left the city for the SCV at 12:50 pm, after some tourists scolded the driver. Thankfully, I made it in time for the first workshop. The return shuttle from the SCV was also the same. However, they should be commended for having enough buses.

I left the concert early on Friday as the crowd became so rowdy as the time went on. I pitied those who were less able and had to remain seated. There were no sitting areas or bleachers set up. At the festival where I’m a regular, there were places for those who were going to dance and those that were going to sit. If in the unlikely event of an emergency, it would have been utter chaos. Without a map, an evacuation plan would have been difficult to follow. Security patrols were only seen on the fringe of the crowd. It was doubtful that they could prevent any unruly behavior. I do not mind having a great time at a festival but watching people waving glass bottles while drunk is unpleasant. I didn’t mind the beer, wine and tuak sales but I saw people who brought in bottles and bottles of liquor.

On top of this, they also ran out of evaluation forms on Friday. There is no excuse for not knowing or estimating how many people would attend the festival. According to the organizers, there was a limit in ticket sales. Furthermore, the SCV also only has a capacity for 8000 people.

Despite these, I returned on Saturday and Sunday to learn as much as I could for my course. I had to resign myself to watching the concert from the screens instead of braving the crowd. I also talked to the staff of the SCV about learning their cultural dances to teach my students in the USA. They requested that I return on Monday when things were supposed to return to normal.

I patiently waited till Monday and paid the admission and shuttle (totaling RM70) to get to the SCV for the 4th day in a row. I checked with the admissions, the bookstore, the staff at the houses to make sure they would be teaching the dances. When the time came, the teachers were nowhere to be found. I had to go to the office where they kindly asked me to return to Kuching later or come back the next day. I could not as I was scheduled to perform and lecture that evening. I would miss my flight if I returned the next day. Apparently, the staff was too tired as they were cleaning up after the festival. Imagine my great disappointment! I had traveled thousands of miles to vacation in my own country and learn my own country’s culture only to be turned down again and again. One’s patience only goes so far. Please take note that I defended your museum’s reputation constantly during the three days of the RWMF. I hope the people I talked to don’t call me a liar as well!

Suggestions for future RWMF/SCV:
1.SCV should operate on a lesser scale and not totally suspend its programs. It is a prime tourist destination for Kuching, Sarawak available year round and should be prominently featured and marketed to the world.
2.Alternate activities must be offered. Perhaps you could organize competitions, kid-friendly workshops, instrument or craft making workshops, short dance demonstrations scheduled by the SCV staff or volunteers. We are paying for a day ticket but there is just too much time when nothing is going on.
3.Rotate the workshops so more people can take advantage of them. Also this would allow for more capacity and room, not to mention this would preserve the structure of the buildings.
4.Please insert a map of the SCV in your program book. Don’t take for granted that it is easy to navigate and everyone will know where things are or have great memory skills.
5.Allow advanced tagging for those who have purchase tickets the week of the festival. This could be done at a central location in the city where tickets are being sold. Tag the 3-day weekend pass holders and Sat-Sun pass holders once. It saves everyone a lot of time and energy, not to mention not standing in the tropical heat.
6.A timed shuttle needs to operate whether or not the bus is full. There also needs to be service from the SCV in between the hours of 1730 and 2230. There were many of us who were tired out and wanted to leave but had to wait for 5 hrs.
7.Alcohol sales need to have some sort of regulations.
8.Security patrols should be among the crowd not on the fringe of the crowd.
9.Train your volunteers to be knowledgeable about the SCV to work alongside the museum staff.
10.Engage volunteers, uniform units or the national service to help clean up during and after the festival. Leave the regular SCV museum staff to do their job which is to cater to the tourists.

If I were to rank the quality of the performers, I would say that the music was great. It is the only reason that made me stay the whole weekend. As far as the food and craft vendors go, the prices they asked for were fairly reasonable. Would I return to the festival again? No, thanks to the lack of organization. Will I come back to the SCV? No. I now understand why Malaysian music is still largely undocumented and unknown to the West. However, I wish to commend Mr. Mohamad Suffian Abdillah for all his efforts to help me at the SCV. The Sarawak Tourism Board should answer to all these and how you have failed to sell SCV to thousands of tourists. It is afterall “Visit Malaysia Year 2007” with about 5 more months to go.

See you in Winfield, Kansas at the Walnut Valley Festival!

Thursday, June 28, 2007

People watching at O'Hare

It's bright and early in Chicago. I occasionally like people-watching but not when I'm sleep deprived. This travel round doesn't seem too bad especially with a good massage and hot tub at my friend's last night.

I'm wondering this: if a Boeing 747 seats more than 300 people, how do they expect everyone to be in the waiting area. There are barely enough seats for those who are waiting. So I find myself a corner to devour my McDonald's breakfast. The only time I will suffer fast food breakfasts. There must be the unwritten sign "parents with little children". There were three families with little ones. I told my students once that I can almost pick out people from different countries based on how they treat or handle their kids in the airport. I still can! Travelling with real little kids is tough and right now, I really appreciate it that I'm a single traveller. I will enjoy this while I can.

Monday, June 18, 2007

The Ghost of the Associated Board of Royal Schools

My former teacher here would not allow me to play any major Bach works, so when I switched teachers I immediately indulged in my favorite composer. I think Bach poses special challenges to musicians: ornamentation and interpretation. You can never play enough Bach!

Although I'm playing the Schubert B-flat D. 960, I wanted to either play the first Partita in B-flat or the Capriccio in B-flat. It's okay, my piano is diatonic and can only play in that key *wink*. Don't ask me to explain how Debussy's Estampes fits in this recital. (Gloria's recital is not complete without a joke: tritone keys.. sound of the devil blah blah blah...).

I settled on the Capriccio since it is shorter and I want the challenge of another fugue. The musicologist in me prevents me from just sticking to one edition. I started off with the NBA, of course and now I have two more editions. I am really confused now with 3 different scores. I thought to lessen the confusion, I should listen to some recordings... and the confusion escalates further. Harpsichord vs. piano and so on.

I am going to perform the Bach Aria & Fugue in Kuching next month, having already emailed the choir director at the church and the principal of the music school. I think they would make a nice opening and here we go ...

I came across the recording for Grade 8 ABRSM 1995 Piano Pieces on the Naxos database and somehow this rings a bell. The Aria & Fugue was a choice for Group A. I listened to the pieces & after scanning the rest of the tracks ... much to my surprise (or horror), I sat for my Grade 8 piano exam in 1995!! This was the list of pieces and I can even see the pieces I attempted to play listed here. I remember flunking scales (E-flat melodic minor staccato) but aced the sight-reading portion. I could tell the examiner was stunned. My aural skills were pretty out there as well. Although I played by ear, I somehow couldn't harmonize that silly melody. I barely passed overall. I think I was my teacher's worst student at that point. I won't embarass myself further by listing the pieces I butchered.

Alright, it's about time I played a Grade 8 piece at the level I am at. I am my worst critic: I better play these well in Kuching! This round better be more than just a scrape by. I'm glad I'm not performing the Haydn Sonata in E-flat L. 62, cos it is on this year's Grade 8 list.

P.S. At least the students I will listen to in Kuching will know and should, that I won't be mean. ABRSM is thankfully not the end all.

Thursday, June 7, 2007

From Brainfall: What Kind of Drink Am I?

You are a Fine Glass of Wine. You are sophisticated and refined, but also complicated and hard to deal with. Not everyone loves you, but those who do swear that you're the coolest thing since sliced bread. One of these days the people that matter will understand you. Until then, you will be sitting on your throne as the distinguished product that not everyone has the taste to appreciate.

Wowee.. is this a compliment or a warning?

Monday, May 28, 2007

Spoiled in Wichita

After living in Wichita for about two years and moving away to Alabama, I realize I have been spoiled by the variety of Asian food that is easily obtainable in Wichita. Instead of telling new Malaysian students where to go, I might as well list it here.

Cafe Asia: Central & Woodlawn
Here's a place where I know the chef and his wife pretty well. I never order from the menu so if your favorite fried noodle dish is flat rice noodles with egg sauce, meat & veggies, ask them for it. I have to say I like their dipping sauce served usually at dinner time best. First timers should try "roti canai" (flat bread eaten with sugar or curry) and satay (Malaysian bbq). You won't go wrong with these.

Malaysia Cafe: 21st & Rock
The only place that serves Hainanese Chicken Rice.. steamed chicken and steamed butter rice. Ok many friends have said it looks like raw chicken but it isn't.. it's fully cooked but because it's steamed it doesn't brown. Other favorite here is the Malaysian Rice Noodles but occasionally I find it is too heavy on the curry powder.

Deshi Curry House: 21st & Woodlawn
I admit I prefer this to Passage to India across the street. I grew up with Southern Indian food as my nanny was Indian. (Ok another confession I had a nanny till I was eleven). Basmati rice and curry mutton is great.

Cafe Tu Tu: Central & St.Francis
This place serves Vietnamese pho noodle soup. I enjoy their wonton noodle soup the most. I think they already know my order when I walk in. Usually served with egg noodles, wontons, Chinese barbeque pork and shrimp.. along with the usual garnishes: basil, cilantro, green onions, lemon wedges & jalapenos.

I'll add my Asian grocery shopping list later... but now I have a reminder of all these that I'm missing in Tuscaloosa AL.

Saturday, May 19, 2007

The actual summer plans

My summer plans are already in full swing. It's time for a complete break from Alabama so I'm back in Kansas. Indulging in some favorite leisure activities which mainly include spending money $$ eating & a little shopping, practicing the piano & perhaps dancing if I find the opportunity here in Wichita.

I will be heading back to T-Town early June and will leave for Malaysia at the end of June. I will be teaching piano lessons and taking a few myself. I am seriously considering enrolling for ballroom dance lessons. As much as I hate to, I should give my document topic some thought and start preparing a draft.

July is going to be exciting. I should hear from MTNA about my proposal for the national conference. If it is accepted, I'd jump for joy. I will visit exotic Borneo and spend a weekend at the Rainforest World Music Festival near Kuching, Sarawak. Teaching the world music class has reminded about tribal music in Malaysia. I'll have to figure out how to bring proper clothing and shoes for moving around in the Cultural Village. I'm reminded of climbing narrow steps cut out of a tree trunk.

The other event I will look forward to is conducting a masterclass and maybe performing a few pieces in Kuching, Sarawak. I'm not sure what exactly I'm expecting or what the students are expecting either. I just hope there won't be a language barrier. I don't speak the dialects there and my Malay is just too rusty to teach in.

So here's to signing off from the Wichita Public Library .. with Riverfest just round the corner.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

Musical Gloria-isms

Analyzing atonal theory is like constipation.. you know it's there but you can't get it out!

"You need to have naturally big sound." Very few things are naturally big nowadays!

If Bach kills a kitten everytime someone writes parallel fifths, there must be no cats in China.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

DMA - Still Doesn't Mean Anything?

I have been thinking a lot lately, yes, actually thinking. Since the infamous March 9, I have been thinking.

In this period of slightly more than a month, I have read and studied more books, of which only 2 were fiction, listened and studied more piano pieces. Also, I am almost finished with memorizing pieces for my recital. I am researching and looking into more resources for projects which have been put on hold for the past 2 years. I can finally indulge in some academic cravings.

It is also amazing what stress can push the body to do. Now, that my body is no longer charged with adrenaline and perhaps the levels are normal, I am sleeping earlier and much better. I have decided to not rush anywhere and be only on time for classes. Every other activity is optional and I won't make a decision until I absolutely need to.

The MTNA conference in Toronto was a blast. It was great to meet and be with wonderful musicians, and find people that are affirming. Malcolm Bilson, Seymour Bernstein and Peter Takacs gave wonderful presentations. Practice techniques and medical issues were also discussed. (Horses and dogs are smarter than we are at times). Being with familiar friends was definitely very refreshing, since these people have known me since I was still a teen. Free books are also a plus. I had so many freebies, I had no space left to bring anything else back.

Now, I have to make the "Doesn't Mean Anything", mean something to someone. Hopefully I'll convince myself first and then sell it to an employer. All about jumping hoops and navigating the course, huh? 2 recitals, 2 proposals - 1 lecture and 1 document. The countdown is on!

Friday, March 30, 2007

The Non-Conformists

Toronto ON, Canada:
I attended a session on Latin-American music and its rhythms at the MTNA/CFTMA Collaborative Conference last week. Although the session wasn't extremely interesting to me, I learned something about myself.

This was a Dalcroze-eurhythmics class in a nutshell and the participants had to move to music. Musicians are often stereotyped to be the non-conformists in society BUT when 40 musicians are in the same room together, they will again conform within themselves. When our presenter asked us to walk to the music, almost by instinct we walked in a circle (counter-clockwise). It made sense cos we utilized the largest amount of space.

Then she said, "I didn't mean to walk in circles, I just want you to walk." At that point, a few of us (yours truly included) turned and walked clockwise, against the grain. Gradually, this small group became more and more adventurous, walking diagonally across the room, zigzagging, and walking in between & against all the others who were still in the circle. I could not help by whispering to another music teacher, "You can tell who the non-conformists are in this room, can't you?" We both laughed!

I am a non-conformist (hahahahaha) and the thing that struck me was that I was not afraid of breaking up the circle. In fact, I was encouraging other people to break out of the "rut". I remember people have to dodge us and avoid colliding with us. As the exercise progressed, there were more and more people that were willing to move randomly. I did not stay to the end of the presentation but in this short 15 minutes, I discovered another part of myself.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Summer ...

Speaking of looking forward..
I will have to take a summer course for the first time.. ugh. On the other hand, I plan to give my second recital over the summer. Maybe some folks from Kansas can come, if my teacher approves. I don't think I want my friends to watch me perform here, I'd rather fly back to Kansas and play there. They may not recognize the Alabama Gloria.

I am considering attending the World Music Festival in Kuching, Sarawak. I love Borneo if I had a favorite destination in Malaysia. It would be a good festival for me to attend if I intend to eventually pursue studies in ethnomusicology. I'm sure my students in the world music course would benefit if I am given the chance to teach it next year.

Too much of a good thing?

I have not blogged this year. Too many things have happened and time has flown by. This blog may be quite random.

I have met quite a few wonderful people in the past week including several acclaimed musicians, the composer Mario Davidovsky and other profs who are involved in Asian studies. Meeting these people, talking to them and attending their lectures was like being at an oasis in the desert. All these great experiences are now difficult to relive, as I can now COMPARE ... what a scary word!

I feel like I have been starved and I'm getting stuck in a rut. I miss the intellectual & philosophical discussions I used to have with my professors. I miss piano lessons. I miss reading for the love of it. I miss having a brain. I am a human BEING. I hope I've not morphed into a human doing.. There is such a push in my dept to do and do and do. There is neither time for reflection, nor a wisdom of discerning the important from the urgent. Nothing has time to mature and go deeper beyond the surface.
I have three weeks to my comprehensive exam. I look forward to getting this hurdle out of the way. For the second time (only), I will skip a week of school in March and head to Toronto. I hope to regain some sense of focus and sanity with a two-week break. What matters in the long run for me is that I finish this DMA (doesn't mean anything) and resume my goals. For now, they will be on hold.